Her attempts to convert you will get stronger and stronger, if you make it clear to her that you will not under any circumstances convert, she'll bounce. I feel as if my husband and I just live passed eachother. You have to be so strong to be on your own so much. You should also be willing to date other people. Well if she knew or ever found out, in her eyes you'll be a loathsome perverted deviant in need of sex addiction counseling.
I don't care about the money, I have suggested him to downsize if needed for him to work less. My boyfriend and I moved in together when he started his fellowship last year. The reality is that while God gave us a gospel of love and stands always ready to give us a helping hand, his mercy will not rob his justice.
Additionally we have no family nearby for me to rely on for help or just to combat loneliness. They are just really convinced they are right. You can't gamble on her seeing Mormonism for the shit show that it is. You will only have a happy relationship if either you both believe in the Mormon Church, or both do not believe. A shitty sex life, potentially. She sounds so indoctrinated that like even if you try to get her to open up, who knows you might get like a BJ out of it doesn't sound like it but who knowsyou have to realize that a lifetime of conditioning will be set in motion in her mind that will make your life hell. The important thing is whether or not your spouse will support you in your endevours to live your religion. Take issues as they arise, rather than throwing away what could be a good experience for you and her based off of what might happen.
Toxic is the right word. And he likes the idea of us raising our daughter with the values the Mormon church instills on their youth. Is there even any sex at all in this fantasy. I trust him and I highly doubt he's getting "it" from someone else.